I’ll be 28 forever
Patiently waiting to feel good
My body is still tight
Looking in the mirror…
Looking Deep into my foundations
Pain makes you beautiful
At least that’s what I learned at 23
I wrote this story in a time when
Herstory was an old religion to the uncivilized
Human citizen
Consisting of Many nights of well deserved pain
Bang
And soft sparks fly
Bang
The singularity
The beginning of I
What is God?
A he or a she?
Don’t you remember?
We create worlds In our minds with soft sighs of wonder
What is God an it or an energy?
Did you hear me girl?
We create worlds In our minds with soft sighs of wonder
I am innocent
I am known as walking redemption
I’m perfecting the art of walking on water
Check my technique
My best friends would call me love if they knew me
But they don’t
My words create Light with shapes in the divine matrix
I take responsibility for my airy seeds
Sacred shapes drift off my tongue
Enticing me to eat my words like cherries
Blackberries and banana pudding the hood kind
The child Divine
I create existence
I know nothing of my power
I know nothing of my relevance
I am unable to defend myself I need help
I need a savior
Hello, world
Hello me
I am my savior…
I create worlds in my mind with soft sighs of wonder
I keep creating worlds
My Tongue has always been too shy to speak
Does everyone talk to God or just me?
Bang
The Singularity
Creative Intelligence
God
Did it get mad or have a great idea
Did it orgasm?
And create Carbon
6 sets of electrons 6 sets of neutrons and 6 six sets of Protons.
Life is the Beast Itself
666 Thats the concrete plan
I’ve slept on worse surfaces
There are creator gods posing as your god The One
Snakes
Jealousy runs deep in the womb of my herstory
Imagine a seed that grew in ideas
false fake made up ideas & in a sea of ideas she grew
Space, vast and wide
bang….
The singularity
Then she wokeup
Are you serious?
Sirius
Dead Serious, The Dogons Tribe says that the Earth is evolving
I believe them
I am her to assist in the galactic shift and so are you but you forgot.
My roots go deep
I am a vortex
A wind a delightful, ambassador from the Yin Dynasty
I revel in the exoticism of it all
I used to hear the thoughts of others on subway trains in New York City
Someone told me “you can never hear the thoughts of another”
How would they know?
But I did, sometimes I still do…
They used to secretly ask me if I could hear their calling….
I couldn’t hear their calling
I couldn’t even hear my own calling
I behaved so badly, so godly, so unruly
I am God & the devil
We each have a calling
How annoying it is to be classified as so many things that I didn’t choose
I’m Black a girl, , daughter, sister, whore, bitch, prostitute, mother, queen, goddess, god, twat whatever
And all without consent…
Labels are a prison for the mind.
Give me free
I’m a self confessed journey…
A saint and a sinner…
I am neither
Only lately… I can see myself…
Enlightened…
I can see myself
I wake up with fire and ice in my chest,
Considering the Zombie reality
I can’t quite it…
I just want to want fuck something and go back to sleep just like the rest of the world
Other days I dream of Paris
When I’m sleepy I go back and find my lover in my mind
My obsession for androgeny
I meditate…
Gaia
I allow your energy to enter me
As I go down… down … down…. Deep into you
Through the mud, and weeds
Through my sorrow, and shame
Rocks and embarrassment
Negative financial gain
Guilt and fear
I hate her the more I get closer to her
She reminds me of my shit I see myself
I allow my essence to burrow deep into the earth
6 feet… 7…. 12…
Electricity she wakes me and reminds me that I’m not me
She journeys me to my core…
Our core…. I am nothing
Nothing…… NO-THING….
And we merge…….
I draw in healing energy through the bottoms of my feet
I allow the light and the energy of the earth to cleanse me
I allow my ancestors song to vibrate every cell in me
I hear the beating drum and finally understand the rhythm of my heart.
I take control breath out stress, drama and negativity.
Could it be that I just need a small place a space to apologize to myself?
Back to the beginning
Located at the base of my spine is my root
I am creative intelligence in the flesh
Finding her voice
Grounding, connecting, courageously
Awaken awareness within me
I choose to heal and balance all forces and energies within me
I no longer fear the same God you love.
I choose to awaken wholeness, truth and strength within
I’m curious
Do you understand that you are the only black person in the room entertaining?
You are relevant to the peoples understanding.
I claim to be 28 again perpetuating my own illusion
I choose to be a better version of myself.
Farrah… The Quantum Poet
Wow. I feel as if I’ve taken a long journey with you just by reading this poem. SO many thoughts converge and collide, like a traffic jam in my mind. It’s difficult to articulate a reaction to your words…but I think I understand what you mean by them.
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Thank you sis. I’m glad you like. I think I would like to write more poetry. We should write more together here on our blogs.
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